tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57451117748784281362024-02-19T22:47:26.990-08:00RENEWINGBUILD YOUR GREAT-GRANDADS INHERITANCE BY YOUR MODERN PERSPECTIVESPIRIThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12686343207554621299noreply@blogger.comBlogger13125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5745111774878428136.post-15892563798560792002007-11-26T00:35:00.000-08:002008-12-09T04:02:52.358-08:00IT ENDED<p align="center"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhtCLFeLGgoJsR5t9bhVmpjFhfLIl3Z9p9VGF7AT1lbrGB-Ve33sZNhwOR2UiSGJUJCxQmXgnEW0m2MB0oPHGKlhPIZAoCl64Ng741FzwjS8iA0l_HdCxCpz5eDQc79J7NRVvTRv-AXgz6p/s1600-h/alumni_corner.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5137073965623351122" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhtCLFeLGgoJsR5t9bhVmpjFhfLIl3Z9p9VGF7AT1lbrGB-Ve33sZNhwOR2UiSGJUJCxQmXgnEW0m2MB0oPHGKlhPIZAoCl64Ng741FzwjS8iA0l_HdCxCpz5eDQc79J7NRVvTRv-AXgz6p/s400/alumni_corner.jpg" border="0" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhtCLFeLGgoJsR5t9bhVmpjFhfLIl3Z9p9VGF7AT1lbrGB-Ve33sZNhwOR2UiSGJUJCxQmXgnEW0m2MB0oPHGKlhPIZAoCl64Ng741FzwjS8iA0l_HdCxCpz5eDQc79J7NRVvTRv-AXgz6p/s1600-h/alumni_corner.jpg"></a></p><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />when i had graduated from university my relation with my friends was cutting because i came back to home and became faraway from them, also i increased this cutting by couldn`t answering thier phones , messages and emails.<br /><br />i don`t know why i didn`t want to keep on touch with them at that moment and place, may be being in another place gaves this feeling that i don`t used to be with them in this place. i used to be with them in that university city not in my home, or may be my transfer to another life which is from studying to working life and tarnsfer to another place.<br /><br />at that period i didn`t like to call and talk anyone or know thier new news or remember anything when we were togather, may be because remebering such memories would hurt me.<br /><br />it took from me long time to accept this new life and i thought that i have to forget this people and start making a new friendship with new friends. i found that i can`t living with remebering memories it`s really hard to me just talking to my friends without seeing them in weekend at least or looking to thier way in talking , laughing, crying, eating and being nervous.<br /><br />today is my friend`s birthday so i remembered when we bought 2 levels of cake and big balloon with panda took place in the balloon WOW it was exciting party no one can forget it. we made alot of birthday`s parties in restaurant, cafes and home. i miss that days anyway i decided to call her and when she was hearing my voice she screamed and said : " wean ya anese hal3`eabe" for honest i couldn`t say that i didn`t want to call you i said: " zorof qatele" so we continued our chatting but without that zeal which had been since years ago.<br /><br />this is my life and i decide what i want, need, hope and live so no one has the right to blame me or expostulate for my doings. just i don`t want continue with you it was a period from my life that gathers me with you and simply it ended. they have to understand me and being faraway from them.<br /><br />this is life nothing is permanent.SPIRIThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12686343207554621299noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5745111774878428136.post-66716159707516503622007-11-22T04:59:00.000-08:002008-12-09T04:02:56.110-08:00UPSET<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5135648710790944546" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAIkofC6Zq7xUb9eIz-oWqqj_b_U5DUwnm-S2zaIp-7FrcgXf9k8dRQUQLVLnYFpgIwBLRu_L4H2SCw5EZtriSAOgU4-SZ7TKCc8jwZgu2LHz-82qFp0Mxmqn5l7mu74kIktWFqzxhI7hV/s400/girl%2526dove.jpg" border="0" /> <div>ehhh, from the morning i feel upset, angry, disappointed and nothing encourage me to do anything, also i didn`t change my clothes to work so i wear the same cloth i worn the last day and don`t want to write anything. there is no ideas, no words bel3arabi want to kill the first person i see so don`t be that person :).</div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDYRTEeMcBjw8kp77QrlSIZY1c3L8ZyKxzOeV6U9IhnoBm28Zq59PSZWKbkkH-KMUBAiiwZb-mzb_6tn1juKSDX449qImLuMB9FXrYjkV5xVCSuo8c1zjNBRqxdGq_FRtheemKLUbFYouy/s1600-h/sad-girl.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5135656652185474866" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDYRTEeMcBjw8kp77QrlSIZY1c3L8ZyKxzOeV6U9IhnoBm28Zq59PSZWKbkkH-KMUBAiiwZb-mzb_6tn1juKSDX449qImLuMB9FXrYjkV5xVCSuo8c1zjNBRqxdGq_FRtheemKLUbFYouy/s320/sad-girl.jpg" border="0" /></a> </div><div></div><div></div><div><br /></div><div>it`s the weekend and it will has alot of actions alla yesahel:).<br /></div><div><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5135656832574101314" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQOAEQeF5fSjb7fPxo8qVOUrExu9dAsvq2bfGLF0_H_GWQU2VpVdN1LDYf67ARRR-Xeo37Lt6bGris7bvBlXj43JidHmTe_js5mIMkLVyF_Ze5MSIyIXNH3ZPQ7v9yX0PfjuTDholg05rl/s320/0820.jpg" border="0" /><br /><br /></div>SPIRIThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12686343207554621299noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5745111774878428136.post-28290836405947439882007-11-18T23:12:00.000-08:002007-11-19T01:48:22.869-08:00SIMPLY THEY ARE NOT THINKINGThe most bad thing is being with stupied people at work. they don`t have any good dreams for thier future, no plans, no ambition nothing to think more faraway than their nose, and what makes the problem more difficult their believing that they are the best and always they are correct and have a smart idea. when you are discussing they make you feeling you are talking to a rock. simply they are not thinking.<br /><br /><br />for few minutes i had been in a discussion with my colleague about something stupied. frankly i feel sorry for myself because i decreased from my mind to talk about that subject with that girl. anyway the important thing that i discovered that she can`t recieve any new idea or try something new or want to improve herself in any field in her life. just she is a typical girl do what their parents teach her and now do what her husband want. she is working like a recipient for other`s ideas not all other just from who controls her life and the trouble is that she likes that or she was taught to like that.<br /><br /><br />i know we have to listen to our parents and who gives us a good advice but this dosen`t prevent us from thinking before accepting anything. i don`t need to like black and white movie because my parents like it or i used to watch it with them. also i don`t need to hate alissa or nansy because they do or i have to be like them or want to have their contentedness.<br /><br /><br />everyone has a different thumb print, different mind and different personality so we have to ask ourselves why god did create us like that?? is he just want to increase human`s types randomly? isn`t there a wisdom from all of that?<br /><br />Do you know what these people have another charachters or what do stop thinking make them?<br /><br />it makes them negative person just drinking, eating and sleeping without any attention to leave their print on the world.<br /><br />they don`t know when they should talk or be silence.<br /><br />they are like parasites do`nt know that their stupied way in their life influences in other and causes annoyance for them.<br /><br />they don`t have any sense or politeness when they are treating with other.<br /><br />finally when they take something from other they take it in sloven way.<br /><br />simply they do not and will not have a charismaSPIRIThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12686343207554621299noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5745111774878428136.post-68644170897633783542007-11-18T04:42:00.000-08:002008-12-09T04:02:56.399-08:00رجل الشاشة<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-ajsZ0V-IrMtTMT59775M8ZpUwaBvMamrnsAPQX6MrF9DaJ-cdsPWxK-HQp2W9L2JtN7vpugghiTzgXUZJ60ahwQIYuj8P_afiPzSo1G6mOU5C0wbdHfl_GAqDdgc9WCcHi8U4EbCVv2N/s1600-h/22.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5134174102489339666" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-ajsZ0V-IrMtTMT59775M8ZpUwaBvMamrnsAPQX6MrF9DaJ-cdsPWxK-HQp2W9L2JtN7vpugghiTzgXUZJ60ahwQIYuj8P_afiPzSo1G6mOU5C0wbdHfl_GAqDdgc9WCcHi8U4EbCVv2N/s400/22.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div align="right">عادة ما نرى انجذاب عدد كبير من الناس الى شخص معين بحيث يصبح هذا الشخص رجل الشاشة وربما حديث الساعة ايضا، ويكون ذلك إما لشكل جميل او جاذبية تأسر القلوب كما يقولون أو تسويق جيد لشخص رجل الشاشة او معارف أقوياء ( تزبيط أوضاع كما يقولون</div><div align="right"><br /></div><div align="right">لكن رجل الشاشة الذي سأتحدث عنه ليس كهؤلاء الاشخاص ولا يمت لهم بصلة، وصل الى قلوب الجميع دونما إذن مسبق منهم رغما عنهم وبرضاهم أيضا. وصل بصوته العذب الرقيق وابتسامته الدافئة وشكله العادي ودشداشته وحطته البيضاء النقية ليدخل الى صفاء القلوب والأذهان يمتعها بالكلمات الإلاهية الغائبة عنا التي نقرؤها دونما استشعار لعظمتها، لقد أيقظ فينا التمعن بالمعاني العظيمة لهذه الكلمات البسيطة وعزز فينا الروحانيات والطمأنينة والسكينة لدى سماعها، إنه الشيخ مشاري بن راشد العفاسي</div><div align="right"><br /></div><div align="right">أذكر أول مرة أسمع فيها هذا الصوت العذب كانت منذ ثلاث سنوات عندما كنت أرسم المخططات والرسومات المطلوبة لتسليم المرحلة النهائية من مشروع المرحلة الثانية للفصل الاول في السنة الرابعة، كنت قد اعتدت على سماع موسيق ياني وموزارت في اوقات الليل ( ايام لما يطلع علينا الفجر و احنا لسا نرسم) في ذلك اليوم كنت يائسة من رسوماتي ولم تكن كما أريد ( نفسية زفت كما يقولون) يومها أعطتني صديقتي شريط سورة الكهف بصوته، يالله كم شعرت بالطمأنينة والنشاط يومها، من المؤكد يومها كنت أود أن أبكي وأبكي لكن الوقت لم يسمح آنذاك.</div><div align="right"><br /></div><div align="right">لكل من يعرف ولا يعرف هذا الشيخ الاسطورة ( في نظري) هو مشاري بن راشد بن محمد العفاسي كويتي الجنسية مواليد عام 1976متزوج وله ابنتان ويكنى بــ (( أبي نورا )) ،درس في الجامعة الإسلامية بالمدينة النبوية/ كلية القرآن الكريم والدراسات الإسلامية وتخصص بالقراءات العشر والتفسير ولمزيد من المعلومات تجدونها في الموقع <a href="http://www.alafasy.com/index_page.php?page=1">http://www.alafasy.com/index_page.php?page=1</a></div><div align="right"><br /></div><div align="right"><a href="http://www.alafasy.tv/index.php?option=com_frontpage&Itemid=1">http://www.alafasy.tv/index.php?option=com_frontpage&Itemid=1</a> </div><div align="right">بصراحة شديدة أقولها لم أكن أحب هذا النوع من المشايخ كانوا يثيرون اشمئزازي للاسف سابق ( ربنا يسامحنا) نظرا لمنظر اللحية المشعثة وامتلاء أجسامهم الى حد النصاحة وتعدد زوجاتهم وكثرة التحريم لكن بعد ذهابي الى العمرة واستماعي الى برامجهم بطريقة عقلانية اكثر وقراءتي أكثر للكتب الدينية تغيرت افكاري 180 درجة كما يقال، اصبحت الدشداشة واللحية ما ادعو له لكن بطريقة عصرية وحضارية افضل من السابق<br /></div><div align="right">من الامور التي تجذبني كثيرا لهذا الشيخ هي مخاطبته للشباب العربي واهتمامه به كثيرا وكأنه خلق لتوصيل هذه الرسالة بطريقة عصرية وذكية، فتراه في قناة العفاسي يحاول أن يشد على أيديهم ويقربهم منه وان الانسان مهما فعل من اخطاء فان باب التوبة مفتوح، تشعر وكأنه يخاطبك أنت وحدك من نظرة عينيه وصوته الدافئ ويقول لك انك تستطيع ان تعزز ايمانك وترجع الى الله وتشعر بالساعدة من اعماق قلبك السعادة التي طالما بحثنا عنها واعتقدنا انها موجودة في الحفلات والسهرات والاصدقاء والكوفي شوب او في اي شيئ آخر كنا نعتقده، لكنني وجدت هذه السعادة عندما سمعت صوت هذا الشيخ وعندما تابعت اعماله التي فتحت لي ابوابا كثيرة اعلم أن الدين لا يجسد بشخص لكنه ربما يبدأ بشخص يلهمك ويساعدك الى الطريق الصحيح وبالنسبة لي كان هذا الشخص هو الشيخ مشاري بن راشد العفاسي.</div><div align="right"><br /></div><div align="right">ألا يقولون أن الانسان يوم القيامة يحشر مع من يحب فمن يحب أليسا او وائل كفوري او ريان يحشر مع أحبائه يوم القيامة أما أنا فاني </div><div align="right"><br /></div><div align="right">احب الشيخ مشاري بن راشد العفاسي في الله فعسى أن يحشرني الله معه يوم القيامة</div><div align="right"><br /></div><div align="right">ملا حظة: هذه آخر مرة أكتب فيها بالعربي ( بيغلب على الحاسوب </div>SPIRIThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12686343207554621299noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5745111774878428136.post-55738566270848407422007-11-13T02:46:00.000-08:002007-11-13T05:24:15.789-08:00election campaigntheses days jordanian people are busy with choosing the alderman they want. we see the banners and tents are cluttered all over empty areas in the kingdom. also we see the audience in a tent are listening to the alderman speech or talking or eating or doing nothing just sitting like a sculpture, and u can see foods like mansaf is putted on your house door with a picture of the alderman and you just rash the picture and eat mansaf with a big smile:))<br />all of these doings spread in our lovely kingdom when like these events occur and some of it are good like helping poor people wretches and some are bad like instrumentality spread like a disease or should be every time oh it`s 3:35 pm and my work is finished so i have to go i`ll continue my post tomorrowSPIRIThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12686343207554621299noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5745111774878428136.post-57576085804380462222007-11-10T22:20:00.000-08:002007-11-11T00:10:48.192-08:00COPYCATBefore i wrote this post i was writing about byelection which happens these days in jordan, but i saw my co-worker while i was writing wearing the same headscarf i wear, and really i had shocked from this sightless copycat. i know i am a big stupied girl in this world and i didn`t learn from the last time when i gave some girl a hand to bye her clothes and headscarves and i told her the shop name and she remunerated me by buying the same clothes and headscarf can u imagine that someone wearning the same t-shirt, trouser, belt and headscarf all of it like a copy paste:) in your university? and now i repeat this dopey situation in my work. usually when i ask someone about nice clothes and where are from i go to the shop and looking for another piece and this happened with me when i saw my friend`s new watch which was 2007 CK , i like the design but when i bought a watch i didn`t buy a CK watch respecting her feelings when she would see it on my hand, so i bought CERRUTTI 1881. ahh this example reminded me when some girl bought the same watch i bought in university ESPRIT and you know how many models there in ESPRIT. i am sick from these people. they don`t respect people`s feelings, they are stupied and can`t use thier minds to think and bye thier own choice.<br />every one should has his own color, style and concept for his appearance and put his touches in his clothes to be known as a logo to everybody around him.may be i know alot of stupied people and i have to change these people and don`t talk to them.SPIRIThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12686343207554621299noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5745111774878428136.post-78103392331596185072007-10-24T00:26:00.000-07:002007-10-24T01:05:03.214-07:00لا شيئ<div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">الى حياتي المحبوسة بين أقفاص العبودية</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">الى روحي التي تنادي الحرية من أقاصي البلاد</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">الى قلبي المحطم من شظايا القنابل</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">الى جسدي المعذب بظلم العباد</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">الى ندى التي تجسد هذه الكلمات شخصها الباكي</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">اليك اكتب هذه الكلمات</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">اليك اكتب للاكتفاء الذاتي</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">فالانفرادية في الطبيعة شذوذ</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">والازدواجية فيكي مستحيلة</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">فاخذت الشذوذ لتكملي نفسا واحدة بجسد واحد</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">تريدين الكتابة والشهرة من غير تعب</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">تريدين خروج الكلمات دونما تفكير</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">تريدين الوافر والجاهز لتريحي الاعصابا</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">كل شيئ تريدينه بلا شيئ</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;">ولا شيئ يأتي بلا شيئ</span></div>SPIRIThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12686343207554621299noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5745111774878428136.post-67941973126326562182007-10-21T22:14:00.000-07:002007-11-07T01:54:22.466-08:00DISAPPOINTEDit was 8:30 pm when i was watching to a ladies programme on alressala channel and dreamming like this dreams. i have alot of dreams want to move out from my mind to the real world but still there can`t go ouside. i don`t know why i can`t tarnslate it from ideas to physical, maybe fears from being a failure or being a stupied person when i`m doing this. i`m really disappointed and disorganised can`t write in this paragraph . anyway i`ll post it and in another time i`ll edit it when i`ll be in a good mood to write.SPIRIThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12686343207554621299noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5745111774878428136.post-5204177479684998512007-10-20T22:53:00.000-07:002007-10-21T01:09:03.671-07:00CAN YOU DO IT?<div align="left"><span style="font-family:verdana;">I HOPE ALOT OF PEOPLE READ THIS AND DO SOMETHING FOR THAT. i know alot of us like starbucks, MAC, BK..... etc. but we should do something, shouldn`t we??</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:Verdana;"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:Verdana;"></span></div><div align="left"></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:130%;">السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته "<br />إعلانات صارخة ورسمية وقوية ومباشرة الآن في كل أنحاء أوربا وأمريكا ومفادها <br />ساهم لبقاء إ إسرائيل !! في الأسواق وفي المطاعم: ساهم لإنقاذ إسرائيل <br />رئيس شركة ستار بوكس للقهوة صّرح انه سيضاعف التبرعات لإسرائيل لقتل أوغاد<br />العرب !! (وهوالمعروف بأنه يدفع ملياري دولارسنوياً لإسرائيل من أرباح ستار<br />بوكس<br />( شركة فيليب موريس ( المنتجة لسجائر مالبورو ) تدفع التبرعات بصفة يومية !!!<br />في كل صباح تدفع شركة فيليب موريس للسجائر ما مقداره 12% من أرباحها لإسرائيل<br />( ومدخني العالم الإسلامي يستهلكون سجائر من<br />فيليب موريس بقيمة 100 مليون دولار :وعليه فإن مدخني العالم الإسلامي يدفعون<br />لإسرائيل كل صباح 12 مليون دولار )<br />تكلفة الطائرة اف 16 أحدث طراز نصف مليون دولار فقط يعني إننا ندفع قيمة 24<br />طائرة حربية يومياً<br />للأسف......... هم يجمعون التبرعات لقتل المسلمين بينما المسلمين ممنوعين من<br />>جمع التبرعات للجوعى والمجاعات ؟؟؟<br />>حسبنا الله و نعم الوكيل ...<br />لقد أسمعت لو ناديت حيـا ولكن لا حياة لمن تنادِ<br />ولو ناراً نفخت بها أضاءت ولكنك تنفخ في رمـاد ِ<br />ستار بوكس STARBUCS<br />ماكدونالدز McDonalds '<br />برجر كينج BURGER KING<br />كنتاكي KENTUCKY<br />بيتزا هت PIZZA HUT<br />كوكا كولا COCA COLA<br />بيبسي PEPSI COLA<br />فردركرز FUDRACKERS<br />شيليز CHILIES<br />والقائمة يعرفها الجاهل قبل المتعلم ولكن لا حياة لمن تنادي<br />لنتوقف عن شراء البضائع الأمريكية والبريطانية فقط لشهر واحد !!!<br />أعد إرسال الرسالة لمن تعرف<br />أمريكا تخسر8.6 بليون دولار ب اليوم عندما لا تشتري بضاعتها فقط في شهر واحد<br />( فوفرها على نفسك و على بلدك)<br />أرجوك لا تنتظر، أرسلها لكل من تعرف<br />ثمنها 8.6 /7*30 = 36.68 بليون .........؟؟؟؟؟<br />أنا أعرف انك باستطاعتك فعلها، أرجوك أفعلها كمسلم حقيقي<br />أخبر إخوانك<br />لنوقف شراء البضائع الأمريكية والبريطانية فقط لشهر واحد شهر سوف تكون تكلفة<br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:130%;">"هذاالشهر عليهم 8.6 /7*30=36.86 بليون</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:130%;">ملاحظة: منقول*</span></div>SPIRIThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12686343207554621299noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5745111774878428136.post-63588138324046538532007-10-17T23:25:00.000-07:002007-10-18T04:26:57.668-07:00INSTRUMENTALITYi was writing about another topic when my boss asked me to come and told me that i`ll stay in the same grade in thier company because i don`t have alot of experience " govermental company". what am i waiting from like this company? no appriciate no promotions no efficiencies also no brain. they don`t justify according to efficiency they look to your experience even it`s bad or good even it`s in the same major or not they just look what`s your instrumentality, who`s your back. is he this minister or that minister?? can you imagine that??<br /><br />i asked an engineer if i can move to his company he replyed (as he said): " look for a ministry and let him talk to samer who is the one of VIP do anything for instrumentality and for my good luck i don`t know any minister and he said if u come strongly to this company u will continue strong and u will have a good salary.<br /><br />at october 1st 2006 i had started my first work and when i came they gossipped that i have a strong instrumintality because how a new alumni girl start her working life in such work? and how has she this salary?? just they like to gossip. and for that for a year i had not talk to anyone just for work no goodmorning no good evening and no how are you :) it seems that i am hoity-toity ( nice word:)) but i am not. they are stupied, crazy and don`t work. they just work by talking about each other. imagine the working society that i live!! i know i have to look for anew job.<br /><br />this news are not good to spend my weekend thinking of it. i planned to read a book " the most happiness woman in the world" i was really encouraged to read it and waiting this weekend but now i don`t know if i would do that or i would be the most happiness. imagine that my boss come now and asked me to call an engineer to give the plans!! after what they did with me. they don`t know anything about gusto. but for my luck i can be very coool although i am burning inside.<br />i am asking now where is my strong instrumentality now to improve my grade as they said??<br /><br />note: forgive me if u found mistakes in the article, i wrote it in bad mood.SPIRIThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12686343207554621299noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5745111774878428136.post-9560875550474792012007-10-17T03:25:00.000-07:002007-10-17T04:24:13.388-07:00HALF an HOURevery day repeats itself. timing out the mobile alert at 7:00 am, waking up at 7:30 am imagine the noising from my alert. it had continued it`s ringing every 5 minutes for half an hour, and my sister beside of me screams wake up and stop ur alert from ringing for half an hour. this half an hour tells us alot of stories it`s a part of 24 hours that for years always happens. it`s something of unclear illegible thing. my eyes are completely closed and every 5 minutes when the alert ring i dream different dreams bad or happy alot of new dreams which means new different lives i live in this half an hour. i live at least 6 different lives every half an hour per day. working life ,social life , family life,national life, regional life and universal life are such examples about lives that i live in half an hour i do what i want i be my self i say my secrets without fears i have fairness there i see people i want, i eat , dress and play what i want you can not imagine what things i do and have there. at that moment i live whole of my life. for that half an hour i live i renew i restore and i revive. for that half an hour i smile to my boss, colleagues, co-workers, friends family and my next 24 .SPIRIThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12686343207554621299noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5745111774878428136.post-52203594789814035242007-10-16T05:52:00.000-07:002007-10-16T05:53:22.146-07:00MEMORIES<div align="justify">Imagine that some one special show his head from the door of your office while you are typing technical report by your computer and every thing in you is with this report, come and look in your eyes With a half smile means a lot of meaning, means sadness about some thing happened between you and had gone, happy for seeing you after along cutting and achieving what he wanted in the past and now he is asking you and his self what the result for this farness? Then he just says: how are you wesam? and while all of that which happened in 5 seconds you are just shocking can't say any thing just your eyes are looking directly to his eyes and entering his inside remembering a lot of memories you had shared that you prevent your self to remember for along time. Remember and remember, remember how much you laughed, how much you cried, how much you love, how much you hated, how much you were happy and how much you were sad, all of that happened just in 5 seconds. Ohh, 10 seconds back you for 365 day from your life which you were flying in the air and jumping from nice to nice and you didn't know what would happen to you after those days, u didn't know what was waiting you at that time. you were just eating, drinking and sleeping. No one knew what the end is. Long time had gone you don't know how days had gone after that, you remember every thing as it is happening now. How long was all of that, 5 years? Wow 5 years had gone without back. Every thing walk and don't be back every…. What was that voice? Oh my manager is asking me about the report and there was no any special person came it was memories came from that door and had left with close it. </div>SPIRIThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12686343207554621299noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5745111774878428136.post-3808506550500152412007-10-16T04:54:00.000-07:002007-10-16T04:54:02.027-07:00LIFE<div align="justify">I don't know if I can do it or just stay here no move made just like a constant body without a soul.... soul! What do I mean by soul? Do you know? Any body knows?! What is the soul truth? Is it the thing that gives life for human? If that’s the case, then I hate it. You know why? Because I Just Don't Like This Kind Of Living. I want draw the outlines of my life by myself, not what others are planning for me. I was created for to have freedom, created to fly, I want to fly between clouds, planets, stars and the seven skies until I reach to the seventh heaven and see god and ask him why did you create me? Why am I here in this life?, please forgive me and discharge me from this position, I don't want to be a human, maybe being an ant is better than being a human, kill and killed, hate and hated, envy and envied. I'm just writing here and there and nothing is finished every thing is waiting me to concern on to appear to this bad world. No matter how much I write the world will not change, contrarily, it will be worst than before, because no one wants to change, no one wants to scream and say:<br />"STOP" " IT`S ENOUGH " " I`M TIRED FROM ALL OF THIS"<br />I'm tired from all of these wars, I born on a scream of child who was killed, I suckled the politics instead of mother's milk, every moment I grew up, I grew up with affliction.<br />Every one keeps silent and no comment. Don't say X country is a freedom country there is no freedom in this world we are walking in a circle around ourselves. Don't you know the history is repeating its self? Now you will say oh she is upset girl oh she is crazy lab lab lab, but the right thing is that I'm thinking in this world but you don’t. Let me give you an advice: just give yourself 5 minutes every day for thinking about your life first then about your family, your city, your country, and finally about your world and you will know what I mean with my words.<br /></div>SPIRIThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12686343207554621299noreply@blogger.com0